Today was a good and bad day. First I slept with a guy from my school on the weekend and I tried my best to keep it a secret from everyone but unfortunately everyone found out. Now either people think of me as the slut or the whore. I don't get why people make sex out to be this big thing and if you do it you should be looked down on or even punished.Its sex we were born to mate. And if people don't approve then they can suck a big one. Common like people need to grow up and accept it that other people like to do different things and they don't need to care about it. Everyone thinks that they got me figured out but they don't. I hide many of my emotions and I never tell people what I'm actually feeling. Why do people care so much about my life, is theirs so boring that they need to talk about mine? Do they get joy out of talking about me or even making things up? I really don't get it, if someone does something in their life that you might not really agree with, you do not have the right to call them out on it and make them feel bad about it. Its their life and they can do what ever the fuck they want and you can't do anything about it. Just live your own life and do your own thing cause really if you are worried about other people then you are pathetic. None of us need these types of people in our lives. Good bye to the haters and hello to my motivators.

This is probably the most confusing thing I've ever experienced. Some days I want a relationship but many I try to convince myself that I don't need one to be happy. But most of the time I'm just fouling myself. I really need to focus on something else because this is eating me inside. I see my friends talking to multiple guys and then there's me who goes days without getting a text. Everyone tells me that when you stop looking one will come but its harder said then done. I've tried and are trying. I can do it. Today is one of those days that I'm telling myself that I don't need a boyfriend, cause I don't. Like I want to have too much fun and just live life as it goes and let's be real I fuck every possible relationship up. I always find something wrong, woops on my part. But hey I'm using this blog as a way to release my emotions and not hold them all up inside of me. This is good cause then I can put my head into something else. I can do it. But everyday is different, which one will I pick today? Well today I am picking being single. Common kimmy I can do this, I have friends that love me and will always be there for me.I'm doing good on my own. When the time comes it comes, right now I'm just going with the flow. I'm on the journey of life, exploring different things and experiencing different people. If someone comes along for the journey and can handle it then I will wait for that moment but not expect it. Things happen for a reason. I'm single because faith or whom every is watching out for me has decided that I need to live life more and my focus is totally wrong. Thank you. I can do it. And today I start my new journey.